I wish I could leave zurich right now. Get a one way ticket to bangkok and walk away. It feels like its wrong to be here, it feels like I cant breathe this air anymore. I feel empty, corrupt, needless. I have no idea who I am, what I feel and what I want. Its all so confusing and the only thing I know is that I cant do this anymore. But at the same theres nothing I can change, nothing I can work on. So once again, I just have to go through it..