leacelestine leacelestine

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Lea Celestine 🌻  21 years / zurich / techno ❤️

"Good morning sunshine! Let that fire that burns within you illuminate the world." 🌞

the lack of cuddling i am experiencing right now is upsetting

I got home at 4am this night. I walked through my garden and decided to smoke a cigarette in the meadow. I sat down and then I layed down. I wasnt tired or exhausted, but I just wanted to lay there for a moment. I looked at the big bright moon and at the clouds that surrounded him like thats all they ever wanted to do. I never felt so calm as I felt in that moment. At 4am, when almost everybody is asleep and you are awake, and you look at the moon, you actually realize how small you are. And how all the mistakes you did and all the bad thoughts you have do not matter. And thats where I found peace in my mind. 🌝

"I learned that until you get comfortable with being alone, you'll never know if you're choosing someone out of love or loneliless."

I wont let anybody again get close enough to hurt me

"There's a special place in my heart for the ones who were with me at my lowest and still loved me when I wasn't very loveable." Picture by @kjosh

"I love you," She paused. “But I need to go now. I need to leave. Because we're going to ruin each other."

Just woke up from the sound of the rain ☔️ let me introduce you to the summer in switzerland !

"1. Pain: it will feel like your heart is being ripped from your chest again and again until you become numb
2. Irregular sleep pattern: some nights you will stay up until the sun rises again wondering where you went wrong, others you will cry yourself to sleep at 9 pm
3. Temporary memory loss: you will wake up some days and search for them in the empty space next to you
4. Cold spells: you will miss the warmth of their arms around you
5. Isolation: you will not want to love again, you will not want to trust again, you will push away those who try to love you."

Love it when I have to take care of my neighbors snakes. Such fascinating animals. 😍

"Ich bin ein komischer Mensch, ich brauche Nähe doch ertrage sie nicht." - Im looking for something to save aaaall instagram photos at once, any recommendations ?

I wish I could leave zurich right now. Get a one way ticket to bangkok and walk away. It feels like its wrong to be here, it feels like I cant breathe this air anymore. I feel empty, corrupt, needless. I have no idea who I am, what I feel and what I want. Its all so confusing and the only thing I know is that I cant do this anymore. But at the same theres nothing I can change, nothing I can work on. So once again, I just have to go through it..

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