Time is a series of moments. And sometimes those in-between moments are the ones that matter most, even just that space between breaths. .
Our yoga practice is an inward journey but often accompanied by external expression in the physical body. It's this physical form that is most subject to change and influenced by any number of external factors.
About a year and a half ago now, I strained my left hamstring tendon. A few months after that, my right side as well. The pain changes day to day, depending on my level of activity. Some days it's just a nuisance, some days a constant aching and throbbing. XRAY shows nothing. MRI only shows tendonitis on the left side, but evidently nothing on the right. Its been a long, frustrating journey. I feel like I've been benched for so long and I want so badly to train like an athlete again. I take it easy, I do the conditioning, I do the stretches, I've tried massage, heat pads, ice, NSAID's, no NSAID's, you name it. Acupuncture has been the only thing that helps but the painfree "acu-bliss" only lasts a few short hours. I've been seeing a sports medicine practioner lately and my only next step is retrial of physical therapy. .
All I can do now is pay attention to this moment, not the series of moments in front of it or after it. My yoga practice continues to meet me where I am at in this moment, despite my physical limitations. I know I will find growth in patience and acceptance, although I feel as though I am MORE than ready to move on from this chapter. There must still be SOMEthing left to learn before I can release this pain once and for all, I'm just not quite there. Be patient, find acceptance, live in THIS moment. .