Currently laying on the floor, putting heat on my back, and relaxing. I hate this. I hate sitting still.
I am always in pain. Since November, I have had an ailment of some kind. First it was the headaches. After those were solved (we think🤞🏼) my tailbone acted up and kept me from lifting and even walking right. That went away for some time, but now it's starting to feel tender again AND my back is absolutely killing me. I wake up feeling good, but by the time I get to the elementary school I'm already feeling the pain starting. The pain starts in my lower back and it eventually radiates towards the middle. At the end of the day I'm beyond uncomfortable, but I still have work I need to get done.
I don't function in slow motion and I don't "just sit around." There's always something to be done. As a teacher, this benefits me in a lot of ways, but as a human, it's keeping me from getting better. I don't really have a choice, though, as being a student teacher requires me to be at school every day. Not to mention the fact that I CAN'T EXERCISE. It hurts my back to literally bend over to touch my toe. It's not even the lifting that hurts. It's driving me insane that I feel like I can't function like a "normal" 22 year old.
I've been seeing my chiro every week. Usually, when she loosens it all up it lasts a few days and then gets bad again. I went in today at 7am and by 12pm it was already hurting again. Kill me.
Please send positive vibes/prayers/happy thoughts my way 🌻🌞 I'm trying to stay strong and think that it'll get better, but I just can't see how it will when this is how I have to live my life.