Yesterday was one of those days where a bunch of little annoyances kept happening. Days like so are inevitable. I like to think of them as days when the spirit world tests my progress with emotional impulsivity. I allowed them to come and go without attachment, that is until I thought the day was over and I broke my last bowl piece before bed 😂😅😝
I allowed one long "ugggghhhhh nooooo! Damnit!" Then shook it off.
My point is not to practice "positive bypassing" or whatever you want to call it, but to realize what IS and ISN'T worth your energy. And I've gotten MUCH better at this through yoga 🙌🏼 I almost laugh thinking of how this day would have gone had it happened six years ago.
I used to let every little thing tip me off my rocker. Maybe it was crazy hormones through teenage years, my PTSD or simply lack of knowing anything better. Which really was a huge reason why I started practicing yoga. Something as simple as dropping a pencil could send me screaming if I was already having a bad day. What a way to live... #SMH. Those days feel a world away. 🙌🏼
It didn't all click in one day, but slowly over time I realized I was killing myself. Literally killing myself with how easily I let toxicity take over me, how quickly I'd act on my anger. I realized the impact that my emotions had on my physical body and those around me. Mind-body integration is so, so real. Emotions are tangible to your nervous system and subtle-body. I almost look back in pity for myself because of my negligence to how I was living and the energy I was emitting in times of a stressor. Stressors will never change, but we can change how we react to them!
This isn't going to end with some miracle story of how I handle everything "perfectly" now, given the pursuit of perfection leads to discontentment. But I can safely say it IS possible to change your ways that aren't working to your benefit. The thing is you have to WANT to do it with purity in your heart for the change to ensue.
Yield to life. It will KEEP teaching you this lesson until you surrender. Ask yourself, "is this worth stealing my peace right now?" and watch it all unfold. Only you are responsible for your state of being. ❤️