Soooo uhh... this is gonna suck to write. Almost a year ago i started a very lengthy application to apply for a job i've wanted since i can remember. If you know me even the slightest you already know what that job is. 11 months later, countless hours of studying, physically and mentally draining myself, stacks upon stacks of paperwork, psychological testing, fitness testing, quitting a job that i loved to be in this line of work, you don't even wanna know the rest... today i got told that the second last step of my application i have been unsuccessful. As you can probably tell, i'm devastated. This is the only step in the entire application process that you cannot get feedback. I can't even explain to my parents why/how/what i did that made me an unsuccessful applicant. But im writing this so that all my friends and family see it. And so that whoever the hell sees this knows that i tried. I have never worked so hard for something in my entire fucking life. But this is a promise to myself aswell. I am not able to reapply for this job for one whole year. But in one year im coming back twice as fucking strong.