Guys? Today I had my first panic attack in years. I was about to speak in a meeting and suddenly all of my adrenaline released and wouldn’t stop. Within a minute my heart was beating 180 and so hard that my shirt was moving and my arms were shaking.
I managed to get through what I was doing without running out of the room or putting my head between my knees but it reminded me that my fight or flight physiology is still messed up and will probably always be. The take away is that, despite my body making a mistake, I’ve grown enough to keep my head together. And that’s possible and that’s great. I’m here now, recuperating from draining my adrenals in one shot. Will go dance tonight.