So for the last 4 months I haven't been working out at all. This morning I woke up and looked in the mirror and I was pretty happy with what I saw.
Then I remembered how I used to work out to get that "perfect" body. I'd yo yo diet all the time, I'd work out 6-7 days a week and I'd talk so negatively to myself; if I ate some chocolate or if I missed a work out or if I felt I wasn't working out hard enough during them.
These last few months I've really had to face some demons, including my body image issues; and at the end of the day it keeps coming back to one word; balance.
I'm so sick and tired of talking badly to myself, I'm so sick of the diets and binging and the negative energy I have created within myself over time.
And most importantly, I'm so sick of judging my self worth on how I look in the mirror.
And I know I am not the only person who does that.
This time off has really shown me that getting that "perfect body" won't make you as happy as you think. You'll always find something "wrong" with your body and continue to hate it regardless of how far you've come or how hard you've worked.
Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with having fitness goals and health goals as long as it doesn't make you feel like you're not good enough inside because of how you look on the outside.
As soon as I'm better I'm going to start working out again, not to reach that "perfect body" anymore but because I genuinely enjoy doing it. I want to try different things like more yoga, running, walks, weights, fitness classes with friends and more! I want to see what I enjoy, I want to look after my health especially after being sick, but I also want to explore that part of myself and see where that journey can take me 😊
But again it's all about balance. No more dieting. It's so true when they talk about everything in moderation, honestly I never did, but lately I've loved being free to eat what I want and I've found i don't eat anywhere near as much junk as I used to!
No more negative energy, if I miss a work out or can't work out because of life that's ok because that reminds me I'm LIVING!
There's so much more to YOU and to life than how you look 💕