I have been to my first CSD today. The parade was amazing and I absolutely loved the street festival afterwards as well as the after party. Oh dear, i love the CSD. But I have to say, now that I am home, all by myself, i fee pretty lonely. And I am still not okay with my sexuality I guess. Don't get me wrong, today was absolutely wonderful. I kinda just can't wrap my mind around being with a woman, even though that's what I want. Accepting yourself is a tough thing. I really hope I can do that one day.