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Janelle  Heaven and hell in one.

I am like a flower
That needs nuturing
In order to grow
And become a better person.

I am like a flower
That needs external love
In order to become my most beautiful and wonderful self.
I am like a flower
That needs to be resilient
In order to face the hardships
And rainstorms of life.

I am like a flower
That's weak once in the arms of another person
And when not taken cared of properly
May wilt and could possibly die

#flower #painting #thoughts #art #paint #oiloncanvas #oilpaint #love #potd #artwork #colors

I sometimes wish my soul was a newly primed canvas
A clean slate free from stain
Free from regrets and sadness
Free to act without thinking of the consequences
And from the fear of the unknown
A soul without inhibition

I sometimes wish my soul was a newly primed canvas
Looking forward to what life has to offer
Ready to fall in love without analysing
Without thinking of pain nor misery
A soul ready to gamble

I sometimes wish my soul was a newly primed canvas
But I realize that my broken soul is what makes me who I am now
The stains of life experiences
Made me stronger and wiser
And despite of the imperfect journey
I know that even if my soul was a newly primed canvas, I would still make the same mistakes all over again
To say that I have competely lived.
#canvas #poetry #primer #art #painting #potd #qotd #love #easel #white

Someday, I'm going to fall in love
He's going to love me back
He'll love me despite of my flaws and imperfections
He'll be patient and understanding.
He and I are going to see the northern lights
Holding hands and sitting beside each other
We'll admire the view together
And just enjoy each other's company.
Someday, I know I'll find that love
That love that's worth fighting for
For now, it will just be a dream
An idea that comes and goes
A happy thought.
#auroraborealis #northernlights #painting #art #watercolor #love #sundaythoughts #potd #poetry
#color #artwork

Mindless chatter.
Boisterous laughter.
Loud noise.
The sound of friendship, the sound of camaraderie.
She sits in the middle of the room
As if she is part of the group.
But deep down she knows she's broken.
She's falling apart.

Piece by piece, she tries to stick
The fragments of herself together
She wants to be whole again.
She just wishes to be alright.
And then she remembers
A broken egg can still be useful
Her hope is regained.
She will be okay.
#bipolar2 #art #thoughts #potd #acrylic #painting #colorful #happiness #love #bipolar #qotd #egg

Why do you paint?
I paint to express
What's in my heart
What I cannot
Put into words
I paint to show
The emotions I feel
When I can't show them
To the world

I paint to lessen
The load I carry
On my shoulders
And turn them into art

Most of all
I paint
Because I am free
To be myself

#sundaythoughts #potd #love #qotd #art #paintbrushes #art
#paint #happiness

Simbalion Soft pastel + stabilo carbothello + inspired to do art but too lazy = A quick sketch of Jasper

Excuse the filter haha my phone is Low Battery so I had to use a filter because it was too dark

#sketch #art #dog #brown #artwork #potd #love #simbalion #carbothello #cute #chalk #pastel

It took her 1 year
To build herself
From ruins

It took her 1 year
To realize
What she wanted

It took her 1 year
To understand
What was going on

It took her 1 year
To fix her life
And it was worth it.
1 year for some is too long
But for her it was enough
Because now she feels so much better
Because now she's finally back on her feet.
#potd #love #happy #smile #selfies #natural #nomakeup #qotd

Newest addition to my art collection
#pastel #potd #love #colors #vibrant #simbalion #softpastels

Trigger warning: piece is related to suicide
Please read at your own risk

Painted for yesterday's piece. Here is the improved art work.
Title: Dying was the least painful part

You read her name in a news article. She had killed herself and was the headline.
You shake your head at disbelief.
She had it all, why would she have done it?
She had the looks, she had the job and she had the money.
Life was generous to her.
She didn't have the same problems as you, after all she had priviliges you can only dream of.
But what you don't know is that underneath her picture perfect smile
Was a woman struggling with her mental health.
She woke up one day feeling hollow
She felt useless, helpless and worthless.
She tried to fight but everytime she did she only felt worse than before
As days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months
She was becoming more and more miserable
She tried to seek help but no one understood
They told her she'll get through it, she was a strong person
Her sadness will just go away, she just had to override them with happy thoughts
But all her actions were just in vain
As time went by she felt like she had no reason anymore
To keep on fighting, To keep on moving, To keep on surviving
She was in too much unexplainable pain
She had no more sense of self
She had no more reason to live

One day she decided she had enough
She slit her wrists and her arms on the tub
Dying was the least painful part
Because it meant freedom
It meant the suffering was going to stop.

Author's note: This is written from the perspective of a person suffering from depression.
Suicide is not the answer to our problems but for a sick person, it seems like the best option.
Check the comment sections on tips on how to help people who suffer from depression

#Mentalawarness #mentalhealth #potd #suicide #drawing #art #depression #mentalhealthawareness #health #mentalillness #colors #painting #watercolor

Trigger warning: piece is related to suicide
Please read at your own risk

Title: Dying was the least painful part

You read her name in a news article. She had killed herself and was the headline.
You shake your head at disbelief.
She had it all, why would she have done it?
She had the looks, she had the job and she had the money.
Life was generous to her.
She didn't have the same problems as you, after all she had priviliges you can only dream of.
But what you don't know is that underneath her picture perfect smile
Was a woman struggling with her mental health.
She woke up one day feeling hollow
She felt useless, helpless and worthless.
She tried to fight but everytime she did she only felt worse than before
As days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months
She was becoming more and more miserable
She tried to seek help but no one understood
They told her she'll get through it, she was a strong person
Her sadness will just go away, she just had to override them with happy thoughts
But all her actions were just in vain
As time went by she felt like she had no reason anymore
To keep on fighting, To keep on moving, To keep on surviving
She was in too much unexplainable pain
She had no more sense of self
She had no more reason to live

One day she decided she had enough
She slit her wrists and her arms on the tub
Dying was the least painful part
Because it meant freedom
It meant the suffering was going to stop.

Author's note: This is written from the perspective of a person suffering from depression.
Suicide is not the answer to our problems but for a sick person, it seems like the best option.
Check the comment sections on tips on how to help people who suffer from depression

#Mentalawarness #mentalhealth #potd #suicide #drawing #art #depression #mentalhealthawareness #health #mentalillness

Painting: Bipolar Disorder

Somedays you feel like the queen of the universe
You are invincible, powerful and no one can stop you
Other days you feel like prey hunted by a predator
You are helpless, weak and have no future to imagine.
It's not easy living life with a mental disoder
Everything is blurry--- you just don't know what will hit and when it hits.
You go to a therapist. You take medication. You become better. You are improving.
But one day, somethings are out of your control and you break down. You have to once again start over-- back to square one.
You're unstable. You're lost. You want to talk but you have no one.
Everyone says they'll be there but it seems as if those promises were empty.
But you remember, you still have yourself
And you pick yourself up with the little dignity you have left.
But it's nothing to be ashamed about.
It's okay to not be okay
It's alright to start over
You didn't want to get sick
You didn't choose to have it

#painting #bipolardisorder #bipolar #art #potd #colors #watercolor
#mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth

Finally had my hair fixed #brazilian #hair #smile #love #potd #happiness

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