Last year I stopped ignoring a recurring dream and decided to pursue producing music again. I’d stopped years ago when my video career started taking off and it had been nagging me for a while. I applied and got in to Icon in Burbank and started a new chapter in my life that honestly scared the shit out of me. How do I start a music career in my 30s? Where does that fit with my business and film career that I still really care about? How do I pay for this? These questions and doubts were pretty crushing under the intensity of the program while managing my business and just life in general. But along with help and encouragement from my loved ones I slugged through it.
This weekend was our graduation for all of the classes this year and I was nominated for an award - most improved student of 2018 (which makes sense, I was pretty green going in lol) and I won. At a school that has produced so many huge artists with massively successful careers in electronic music, to receive that honor at the end of one of the most trying years of my life really solidified my decision and helped push those doubts out the window. Not only that, the award was handed to me by a guy who before I became friends with I was a huge fan of as a young raver and whose records I still have on vinyl from those days. Walking on to a stage hearing my own music while that happened was just insane on so many levels.
I’m not sure where I go next from here but I have zero doubts that it’s about to be the most exciting, scary, and fulfilling chapters in my story.
If u made it this far you deserve a cookie. And if you were around me this last year and I’ve been absent or stressed, thank you for dealing with me and for being there from the bottom of my heart. #iconcollective