Triple chocolate layer cake
A fitting cake to post because it's National Chocolate Week here in the UK and this pretty much hits the chocolate brief. You can find the recipe for this and 11 other chocolate delights in the book. Link in profile.
More importantly I wanted to tell you about the visit I had with my Mum today. She was relaxed and content and was 'there' with me if only for a moment or two.
My Mum has been rambling for some time now, continual speech which we can't decipher. Her words get muddled up and her sentences are incoherent. I always answer her, sometimes making things up myself just so I can respond. She often laughs during our nonsensical conversations and at times she does catch me by surprise, as she did today. She stopped talking for a moment, looked me in the eye and holding my gaze she told me that she loved me. She said that I was beautiful and kind 😭 It's hard to comprehend how such moments can happen, a bolt of clarity amid the servere confusion - just like that. She was there for a moment or two, there with me inbetween those ramblings. I've always believed that sufferers of dementia know more than their mind allows them to share. To know that Mum can still feel others kindness and love is soothing, how ever, it's also moments like these that leave me gasping - holding my tears until it's time to leave. The moment my back is turned and I'm walking out of her room the tears are rolling down my cheeks. It's hell thinking of her laying alone in that room, locked within her mind - longing for the warmth of someone's love and company. Longing to feel a hand held in hers, searching for someones eyes to look in to. Bless her poor lonely soul. It's such a long, sad and torturous disease, it really is.
Please, if you are going through this with someone, talk to them, even if it makes no sense. Touch their hands and kiss them....they are listening and they are still feeling your love 💔 .
📷 Photo credit - Lisa Linder