You know that feeling you had during your most awkward adolescent years — that everyone was staring at you? That feeling is my life. People are staring. And, often, they’re not just staring. They want to talk about it. As an adolescent I hated it and hated myself. I was always embarrassed and I didn’t want to talk about it. I was very insecure in my body and I felt like I was made fun of religiously for what I looked like. The Middle school and high school atmosphere made me want to kill myself. I never fit in (in more ways than one). My height is something I discuss every day and I always have. Strangers ask about it when I’m browsing at the stores, children point and stare. Women remark on it loudly as I walk past them in public, and if I wear heels or if I’m out of my town, the comments increase tenfold. The questions are always the same: How tall are you? Are your parents tall? Do you ever wear heels? How tall is your boyfriend? Can you even find a boyfriend ? Or, sometimes it’s just a statement: You’re really tall. You’re really big. You’re really big for a girl. To make a long story short, at 30 years old I’m finally proud to say that I absolutely love being tall. I no longer mind talking about how tall I am, and I’m proud to be a large framed woman that’s striving to build muscles day in and day out.
My entire life changed when I discovered my passion for lifting. Instead of hating my large frame, I chose to find a way to change it, I found a way to take a hold of something I had control over, and that was changing my physique with the weights in the weight room. I began molding the body I was given into something powerful and I felt that if I could become strong and defined that I’d be more than just a “big girl” but a powerful one too. It began boosting my confidence each time I saw a change in my physique. I felt as if it was one part of my body I could have control over. I struggled through a “come to Jesus” moment or two and realized there was no point in hating myself anymore because I couldn’t change my height, the length of my limbs, or the size of my feet, but what I had control over is and was the overall presentation of my physique👇🏿