So the real question I had to ask myself is “What the hell am I WAITING for?” // It’s been a year and half since I became a full-time entrepreneur and almost a year to the day since @clairembiggs and I became partners and landed out first client together. When I think about where I was this time last year, I never could have guessed that we’d be where we are today with @loredeforce. I also wouldn’t have imagined that I’d be sitting here a year later - as a successful creative entrepreneur - doing a creativity challenge.
The thing about getting paid to be creative is that it’s so easy to crowd out the space that used to be “just for the hell of it” creative projects in favor of prioritizing client work (note to self: these things don’t have to be mutually exclusive!) I was recently insanely lucky enough to attend a creativity retreat at @1440multiversity, and it’s felt like since then, the universe has been conspiring to inspire me, and I’m grateful that the imaginary restrictions I put on my personal creativity have lifted. It could ALSO be because I’ve tried a revolutionary thing called self-love after I had a major epiphany about the fact that on a scale of 1-10, I come in at a solid -747646556 for how much self-compassion I have, and creating when you’re beating yourself 24/7 isn’t exactly a recipe for magic, but this is another Instagram post...
I’m not sure what exactly is going to come from some of the ideas I’m playing around with, but it’s a glorious thing to create without an outcome (or a deadline or a contract) in mind. To answer my own question of what the hell I was waiting for - I was waiting for a permission slip, and this challenge is me giving myself one to create EVERY DAMN DAY, just because. I need to be reminded that I don’t ever need a reason to create, that we ALL have the capacity to create within us, and that we just don’t need to take ourselves so damn seriously all the time. And now, it’s time to experiment :) #wildawake