366 days ago I began my most enjoyable and most devastating year ever. Traveling the world, making new friends, creating businesses, falling in love with this beautiful woman; to having nearly everything taken away from me. The highs were high, and the lows, the lowest I’ve ever experienced; mentally, physically, emotionally, on both ends of the spectrum. The lows; forcing myself not to lose hope, not to give up, with the simple ideology that “if I just make it past this test...”, yet they kept coming. The small victory celebrations were cut short by a continued onslaught of more bombshells. Just like the majority of those I know, 2017 felt like the worst year ever. The jubilations fade much faster than the wounds take to heal. But they DO heal. And those wounds transform into scars; learning experiences now guarded by tougher skin.
Through it all, I have nothing but gratitude for being put through these vexations, and continue striving to persevere through everyday tribulations. Having suffered, mentally & emotionally, and embodying all of the physical effects of depression, anxiety, stress, etc. I know first hand how detrimental these thoughts and feelings can be.
I reached rock bottom; and that’s when you saved my life. I know, you told me you didn’t want me to make this about you... How could I not? Without being asked, you helped me the ways other couldn’t, there for me in ways no one else know how to be, continually see something in me that has me asking you everyday “is this real?”, already knowing the answer.
I made it through 2017 sane because of you, give me a thousand 2017’s with a promise of you by my side and I’ll never lose. Thank you for completing me, for continually being the rock when I can’t be. Thank you for your love and everything that encompasses the amazingly beautiful and supportive woman you are and supporting all of my outrageous ideas, like this new birthday shoot tradition. I love you unconditionally for being you, and thank you for giving me new life @zsazsabeaute.
Entering this new year of life battle tested, solidly grounded and focused on continuing to live unapologetically happy!