The last few months have been so hard on us. My health has been the worst it's ever been and I feel like everything I used to enjoy has been taken away from me. Now chores like cleaning the house, taking a shower, going grocery shopping are a challenge I often fail at. Our hearts have been shattered multiple times and it just does not seem to be getting better any time soon. It's extremely difficult to stay positive considering I used to play soccer three times a week, ride my horse (pre veg ;)) every day, go to the gym, do yoga, go for runs, dance through the night and travel the world. I am letting go of who I used to be and what I was capable of and try to find the beauty in who I am now and who I will be in the future. There will be better times. I just need to keep reminding myself of it. • i also want to thank everyone who has messaged me whether it was sending strength, sharing your story about having endometriosis, crohns disease, IBS or other chronic illnesses including mental health, to those who sent me articles or asked me for advice. I do what I do and I say what I say so that no matter how many of you don't feel so lonely in whatever you are going through. thank you thank you thank you.