Warning: diary post below.
Ever since I've started having my period, I've been extremely irregular. Due to my lack of normalcy, I sometimes PMS for up to 4 weeks! I'm currently on week 3 of PMS and its starting to really get to me. I've dealt with body image issues since I was about 7, when I was told by a caretaker that I was fat and girls my age shouldn't have boobs. The person who said this probably doesn't even remember saying something so wrong to a child but its something that I will never forget. From that day I'd become obsessed with being ideally thin. I forced myself to stay a size 00. I've cried over my appearance, I've wanted to hide from the world because I felt chubby. Its hard to convince yourself you look okay when you have this pressure to be someone else's version of perfect. For a while, I've been doing well with completely ignoring any negativity about my body I'd created in my own mind. But today I got down. I know I'm super bloated and my uterus needs to be emptied but I can't help but feel weird when I look in the mirror. I know I'm an all around small lady, I'm not looking for sympathy or compliments. I'm sharing my troubles because I know I'm not the only one. You are beautiful and you can change the way you view yourself. If you're healthy and happy, who cares if you've got a little meat to ya? It's okay to get down sometimes but its super important that you keep getting back up and you fight down what feels wrong. Go out and do something that makes ya feel good, like learning how to shoulder hoop! 😉
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