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i am someone i never dreamed  is it even worth it? tell me.. ⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS⚠️ im fighting an endless war with myself..done... feel free to dm anytime or vent always here for u

http://days.clean.0.com/

nothing hurts more than when ur crush tells u they miss somebody and its not u...

Me: SHIT I JUST SENT A RISKY AF MESSAGE
Non-existant friend: WHATD U SEND
Me: I JUST SAID HEY TO MY CRUSH NOW IM TREMBLING IM SO FUCKKNG FREAKED OUT IMA CREEP HER OUT I JUST MET HER AND IM GONNA BE THE REASON ITS OVER FUCK THIS SHOULD I DELETE SHOULD I KEEP WTF AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE I WANT HER BUT SHE PROBABLY WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME
My mind: well on the bright side... well there is no good news... buton the bad side now... i mean u fucked up with ur crush and now u get to go freak out for the next 2 years like the last one on y dosnt she like me to just learn that shes walked away like everybody else.........

I fucking cant anymore. i cant deal with people flirting with me then getting boyfriends and leaving me and not even telling me until i piece all of the puzzle together until i litterally just sit in my bed crying because the only thing i wanted from them was a fucking hug because i knew i wont see them for maybe ever and i just wanted a hug from her so i gave her a hug and she pushed me away... she used to love my hugs. she used to beg me to hold her and i love to hold her close i wipe the tears from her eyes and tell her itl be ok while i hold her i would be there at night when she wanted me to to let her fall asleep over facetime together cause she had nightmares otherwise i was always here for her yet she never wanted to ask me for help cause she said she would do fine on her own.. she said she would never leave me. now she stopped talking to me and is dating someone that she knows i hate and he has tried to hurt me before. the 2 most recent ex's of hers have both tried to choke me out and punch me senseless.. i love her. i truly do. but i cant take this anymore. i cant deal with all of this pain. everybody says shes just a girl but shes not. shes special to me. it hurts that now shes also special to someone who has tried to hurt me before. and she calls him everything i used to be to her. it fucking hurts; watching the one u love walk away from u because u have a new friend and she thinks that she replaces her. she dosnt. i made a new friend because she already started to leave me before because none of her friends liked me. and apparently she wanted her boyfriends more than me but she wanted her friends more than me. it fucking hurts. it hurts when her best friend trusted ME to take care of her and i had to text her one morning to say she isnt mine anymore. im sorry i failed. u dont even know how bad that fucking hurt. i didnt even know her best friend. they live almost 5 hours apart now. but i still did it because she meant the world to her. im sorry i fucking cant do this anymore

is this enough yet?

idk y im obsessed with this pic

rip my bad editing skills

can we please take a moment of silence and just hope that she is ok. i was told early this mornin she was readmitted and i am truly worried about her. ik this is short but immcrying and cant see half of what im typing rn but please get better soon kayla... i love u and ik SOOOOO many others that do too. get better soon ❤️❤️

sorry for same pic but whatever

Today. Saturday, June 11th, 2016. One of my friends had something very unfortunate happen and things happened because of that. she know who she is and also knows the story. if i was allowed to i would tell all of u the story but i am not, under any circumstances, going to because i am not sure if i am allowed to tell all of u the story or not and id rather not risk it. i just want all of u to know that shit happens... but we will get through it. its ok not to be ok; and if anybody needs to talk, im open. please i would love to meet my followers as well. stay safe i love u all ❤️❤️ #getbetter

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