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depression™  •welcome to my puddle of anxiety and low self esteem•

You know.. if I ever lost him I would probably start cutting again. Honestly. He's the one reason I stopped. The reason I try so hard not to now when everything gets painful. He's my reason for staying clean.. but if I were to ever lose him I wouldn't feel any reason not to. I wouldn't give a shit. Hell, if I ever lost him, I'd want to die. Cutting wouldn't even be a problem then... I know it sounds grim and retarded, but he's my happiness, I can't imagine a life without him. I don't want to.. he's helped me through so much I could never have faced alone.. and I'm thankful for it.. very thankful.. I don't think I could ever go on alone after this point..
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My body is sore and exhausted on top of all the emotional shit going on today. I seriously just want to sleep the pain away but that's impossible rn this fucking sucks.
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I'm tired but I have too much on mind to sleep.... Buried Alive by Avenged Sevenfold is literally my song rn. The music itself describes the way I feel right now with no words at all..
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I hate getting my hopes up.. I hate that I can't control my excitement. I'm trying very hard not to get excited for tomorrow because I know it'll end up like today and yesterday.. last minute interference from dumb shit.
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Not gonna lie, I feel completely unattractive lately. Like.. I understand that he's not always going to be in the mood but I feel like he's ENTIRELY disinterested when I send him pictures or bring it up. I mean, I get he's busy with other stuff but feel like since the one incident where we got caught, the topic has just been completely avoided. ;-; I'm just going to stop bringing it up or being suggestive. I'll let him decide when he wants it..
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Lunch/snack: a small plate of some chicken Alfredo pasta my aunt made. Dunno what exactly is in it but she is a total health nut and made everything from scratch, so I don't think it's that bad. Also having a little glass of 2% milk with it. :)
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