Today I had a funeral to attend.. My whole fam was there, my grandma looked through me. No hi. No hug, nothing. She gave my cousin a big embrace in front of me and said hi to them, she said nothing to me.. I'm nothing..
So I just cut... I'm at my friends house in Long Island and I'm so happy I bought my razor.. All my blades got rusted! (Tried hiding them in my bottle which had a bit of sun in 😤) Anyways I cut on my leg and it wouldn't stop bleeding but I didn't care cuz it felt bad and amazing.. I found a 100 pack of blades at walmart for 6$ but why do I need 100? And even if I buy it where do I hide it?!... I feel like I need to cut again and I had a dream that I got some drugs.. It was amazing I got to forget about everything in life.. 😖