I lose my temper obviously. I dont mean anything i say if i do. I get mad and i feel bad after i yell or say something mean to you. Not everyone will listen to the type of advise i give cause its useless. They will still do it. My cousin told me that even if you still tell someone something that they shouldnt do theyll still do it. I legit now understand that. Its their body their brain. If they think its a mistake later ima have to stay quiet. They didn’t listen and now they regret? Idk. Anyways. I feel like some people wouldn’t care to read this cause idk, why should anyone care abt how i feel right? I said i was logging off yea i am but like i said im watching vent edits👌🏼. I dont have anyone to talk to because a human i trusted told their friend on how i was feeling. So they lost some of my trust but i still love them because they’re family to me. I cant talk to my mom cause she’ll think I’m joking. The thing that sucks abt feeling this way is that i feel like no one is trustable enough. Its like everyone will just use it against me. Ik im putting this on ig where people can “repost” idc. People will ask if I’m ok or whats wrong when they know I’m obviously not. No matter how happy i am through the day ill still be sad when i get home. I just wanna stay in bed and cry sometimes. I don’t wanna go to school because everyone is sO judgmental. But i don’t samna be at home because its the same. Everyone judges me for what i like, who i like, what i wear , and who i am or how i am. Some of these people understand that i dislike certain things about myself and still think its alright to state things i hate abt myself its fine im getting used to it. I don’t know how to hell others when theyre sad anymore i find it hard to help someone cause i dont even know how to help myself when im sad. I feel sorry for whoevers friends with me cause they have to deal with someone thats to talkative and makes stupid jokes. Obviously i used to be positive abt myself until everyone started judging me. Sometimes i just wanna restart everything but no. I have to continue on cause i have a whole life ahead of me. And ik things might get better but rn they’re not.