I had an epiphany this weekend about who I am, my emotions, the future, choice, all that kind of stuff. I feel like I’m not putting enough into the world. I want to create something that will out live me. Idk if that makes sense but something that will still impact the world or be remembered even after I’m gone. I feel like right now I’m not contributing to anything. I’m just existing. There is nothing wrong with that but, I want more out of life and for myself. I have people around me saying they see potential in me or they see my purpose but I never see it. I’ve been waiting for my purpose to come to me but I’ve come to the conclusion that I could just create it. I don’t have to wait for a sign or some miracle to feel alive or feel like I’m here for a reason or my life has purpose. ~I would hold myself back from finding my purpose or anything really because of fear. Fear of not being accepted, fear of not being able to finish something, fear of not doing my best, fear of not being able to make an impact or achieve a set goal. But fear is only a feeling. A feeling I have the power to control. I’m afraid. But I’m learning to become fearless. I’m learning to be who i am. If i take everything away and I’m left with the things I created, I want to be able to say i did that for myself. I’m saying all of this to say I don’t give a fuck.