I think the scariest part about getting your heart broken is when you go to that place where you think no one will ever love you again.
The place where you are absolutely convinced that you will never have a love again like the one that you did... That place where love doesn't get to be for you anymore. That you have lost your chance.
That place where you are sure that love will not show back up for you.
That place. Do you know it?
And it had me by the heart. I was depressed, so incredibly sad. So worried that I wouldn't get to love again. Convinced I was unlovable and that I had lost all my chances.
This place made me feel desperate. I felt like I had to settle. I thought that I had to take any old love that came my way.
It was rough for a while...
Although painful....this was all part of my healing process.
The process of healing Love's Ultimate Heartbreak.
I was down.....but not out.
I was determined to heal my heart.
To find forgiveness and compassion inside of it once again.
I did everything that I knew to do to heal it.
It was a dark, lonely, sad, scary place to be.
But it was the ultimate catalyst of my life.
It taught me all the parts of who I am.
The dark and the light.
The negative and the positive.
The good and the bad.
And guess what?
I worked myself through it. I committed myself fully.
and wouldn't you know.....I found love again.
I found it within myself. In a way I never had loved before.
It took going through love's ultimate heartbreak to learn how lacking I was in love for myself.
A shocking truth revealed but now I know.
And guess what....
When I finally got to that place. I was solid again.
I was shining. I was light. I was love.
And wouldn't you know.....I found love once again.
I found myself on the receiving end of love this time.
That kind that I was sure would never happen to me again.
The kind that feels the way that only the good good does.
The kind that's written all over his face when he's smiling back at you.
The kind that makes so many things better.
I am so grateful I kept believing.
I am so grateful I went to the depths.
I am so grateful I kept going.
I am so grateful I did the work.