I’ve been struggling with an autoimmune response for a little while now, and since Wednesday it’s been really bad. .
Extreme fatigue - more sleep than being awake. Muscle and joint pain and inflammation. I have abdominal adhesions from my hysterectomy that are inflamed by obstructed bowel issues that are a result of the pelvic radiation I went through. I have nausea and dizziness which results in very little appetite, headaches, and sensitivity to light, sound, and the cold weather. I can’t focus or concentrate, so I withdraw from my relationships because I can’t communicate properly. (It’s taking me all day to get this caption written out, but I have always thought it’s important to share the ups and downs with transparency.) .
I’ve been listening to my body, and just getting the rest I need - but I would be lying if I said it wasn’t frustrating that I don’t get a say. Missing my family and friends, missing work, missing life in general because my body demands a time out is hard. .
So, I’m just doing my best to take it day by day, to be gentle with myself, and to remember that this is temporary. I’m grateful to have people in my life that love me, understand, check on me and help take care of me.