Two sunflowers 🌞 .
In other news This cold is definitely a chest infection so I'm feeling worse and worse. Spent the morning in bed before Liam heads out to work a late shift.... which means attempting the witching hours alone. 😳💀School run, snacks, pre dinner hunger and school exhaustion rages, dinnertime and -gulp- bath and bed. These are the times I need God most. When we finally fall in from school I can feel the shudders of tiredness and anxiety, I'm desperate to crash and let them sort themselves but these moments in children's life are some of the most important and where we can get in great times of discipleship.
Here are a few things I've found help me out.
Sleep! Sleep deprivation is such a huge one. I gotta have early nights and sleep when they sleep. Before and after the school run I take a huuuuuge drink of water, I find this gives me a flush of energy and a cube of dark chocolate because "well done, you've done half the day mama!"
I check what I'm doing for dinner and see timings. Sometimes I give my self a huge hug because I cooked dinner this morning(sometimes!). I fight the cranky mum inside wanting to get nagging at queenie to change out of her uniform, and let her do what she needs to. It's difficult to remember they're tired and need extra care at this time when I'm feeling so tired. We have a snack at the table with tea and talk about our days. I try and look at them and be present in that moment, counting my gratitudes and noticing their beautiful quirks.
Being organised and efficient is such a struggle for me. When I'm feeling most vulnerable and low I panic that this makes me incapable for motherhood. Unable to ever get this right and my head falls into circles of doubting. I'm very blessed to have Liam, my parents and the church around to help lift my head and see the accomplishments I've made and the incredible children we've patented. I'd love to know ways you fight the attacks of negativity as a mother. What helps to get you through the darker days?
Wow, I didn't expect all of that to come out! A waffley honest post for you all (that I'll definitely regret this later) x it's tough mums, let's be open about it and share ideas.