**SOB STORY PITY PARTY POST AHEAD**
Not really sure where to start, but feeling the need to vent.
I hate my job. Not much else to say except it is 85% of my life because we live at work and I hate every second of every day and it's made me a miserable, mean bitch. So there's the start.
The time before our Christmas break at work was stressful. Mick was contacted by a mate about a job opportunity in Sydney working on the tunnels, which had great pay, a decent roster, and more importantly gets us out of this company and a new place to explore! I'm not a city person, but at this point, I'm take anything!
Mick is probably the most indecisive person I know. His mind changes about every 2 hours (not kidding) on any subject that might stress him out and so when we talk about a life plan, I get so frustrated because we come to a decision and then the next day he doesn't want to do that any more.
Anyway. Long story short, he's been humming and hawing over this job on whether he should take it or not over 2 week holiday (which had made for a shit holiday and had given me a whirlwind of emotions and highs and lows) and decided yep, he's taking it. Awesome. Major endorphin high, there is a LIGHT at the end of the tunnel, I'm over the moon. Happy, ecstatic, we pack up camp early to hear back for a medical, and I am so excited to stay a new journey. Wake up the next day... He's not taking it. 💔 the guy calls for his phone interview, he tells him sorry to waste your time, and.... I'm gutted. You guys, I cried so hard I couldn't breathe and nearly passed out, and then the tears just came for TWO HOURS. I'm absolutely devastated and I'm having a hard time not holding a grudge against him. He knows I hate this job, he knows I'm doing it still because HE'S ASKED ME TO and I hate having to do this in my phone because I can't type fluidly and it gets fucked up, but basically I hate the new year, I hate my life, and I'm majorly depressed.
Going to try and just smother myself in fitness to try and escape my sad reality, but when I go AWOL I'm just trying to cope and some days are easier than others.
Love you all - just bear with me!! 😭