telling yourself its gonna be okay hurts, saying its gonna be fine hurts. i know that feeling, its like you need to feel okay so badly that its driving you emotionally in pain. it hurts so bad, but have you ever thought that all pain are mostly created in mind?
there's this guy who knew me from the third day that there was something wrong, he can see it from my eyes when i walked in. and it was terrifying bcause the truth is there is smtg wrong & i can't help it myself. i'm scared. & i can listen to every hum and breathe of everyone around me. i can smell the bitterness/ sourness around me. the moving pace of walking & i'm terrified.
"i will leave you my petals that had fell, and i hope you'll find a way so you can replant a part of me again. and maybe then you can see my beauty. but that's not possible, you can't plant petals. the only way is to replant my seeds that has died in me." -m.d