"I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face. They don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it."
"When did it all become a blur Like I’m supposed to choose a side Like I’m supposed to always keep apologizing when I did nothing wrong Or to end the argument When did I don’t care become the words to mask my inner thoughts When did I fear my reflection and who I became because I found myself spitting sorrys I didn’t mean or sorrys I shouldn’t have to say When did I become a monster at least to the eyes of some I ask myself when did I get called out for my writing My inner thoughts I say this because I feel watched I feel scared I feel like tomorrow is on it’s way and sometimes I wish I’d die in my sleep But other days I feel like it’s good to be alive And others I feel like people wake up hoping I stay away I need to remind myself I’m not toxic I need to remind myself I’m good I need to remind myself that I can fall asleep crying and you not being there is okay I need to remind myself to live for myself And to stop giving parts of me to some who cannot return the favour My life is like a game I never know what’s coming next why do I let others dictate my faith I hate that I put so much of me in other people’s palm" (bubbly. on tumblr)