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Harley Townsend  Est. 09/05/99 If no one Loves me Now Someday somebody Will.

Day 14/60
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I don't feel the best in my body, it is very rare I feel okay in my body at all, but I have learned to remind myself that somebody wants the body I already have and I have opted to try and embrace my vessel more and promote that form of self love. It's unfortunate that someone still wants what you have but at the very least you can remove yourself from that statistic of people by accepting yourself or working for change. Today I felt okay, throughout the day I went through waves of emotion about what I was wearing but I tried to just let it go, I made it out in public with what I had on and that was enough, no one glared at me or stared. I am satisfied. -
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day 13/60
I skipped the other day because I was enjoying my life and not worrying about my problems.
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Side note: I'm going to ignore you because even when I'm next to you, I still feel lonely. -
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day 11/60
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I don't have a lot to say, and even if I did it would be negative and that's not what I want right now,
can I just skip today's?
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Day 10/60
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It's the 17th,
we met on the 17th,
you told me you loved me on the 17th,
Our favourite number was 17.
I reminded you, and you got mad.
You left me though, so why are you mad?
I want to keep this one short and sweet: You had me. You had me of all people, and now you don't. You lost me by doing everything you used to come crying to me about...
Good riddance. -
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day 9/60 -
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This is old but I've been re-reading it over and relating to it again. Also I've been at a loss for words today and too lazy to think.
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Day 8/60 -
Today's 'entry' is extremely important to me. I am posting selfies and candids because the entire post I wrote (That I will paste in the comments) is about a boy that I love/d. I want to remind everyone reading that you also need to remember to love yourself, too - physically & mentally & emotionally. Therefore I am writing this as a way to release anger and sadness while also embracing myself as a vessel and respecting my personality. I think the way I've treated and let this boy back into my life countless times expresses how much I care even when people treat me like a doormat, and I like that about myself - that I care, but I know I need to stop letting people take me for granted; especially the ones I love/d. Therefore I am sharing this with friends and strangers, some people know the person I'm talking about - but they do not know half of what he did to my friends and I and even then, this isn't all of it. I think he's changed now but I am wary and I will never forget the negative impact he's had on me in the past. -
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Day 7/60 -
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I try to keep up with this but even at 7 days I'm just kinda rambling to be honest. I want to say a lot today, it feels like I'm bursting at the seems with words. Today consisted of another long facetime call and laying around reading shit posts off Tumblr. I ended up going to the beach and taking some polaroids while watching the waves and playing my ukulele and then got concert tickets for a show at the end of this month. I've been thinking about how grateful I am lately for everything. I acknowledge the little things and the few big things in my life that I wish I said thank you for more because I realize that no one has the same life and that what I have currently is a lot more than others.
Aside from a lazy summer day I was asked to take a few days to think about someone in my life and if I want them there. I'm sure I'd like a lot from them: like understanding, and stability, and reciprocation from this person - I would like consistency and appreciation, but at the end of the day I know that the truth is; is that I will never know what I want until it I have it. Whether I want this person in my life or not does not determine if it'll make me happy, because only I myself can solve that. I don't really like to go with the flow but this may be one of those situations, I haven't been in this kind of predicament in a very long time. At the end of the day I know I want to remain grateful for this person and thankful for such an easy going day. -
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day 6/60

I came across a post that prompted you to write / give advice on how to move on or get over someone. Personally I think it depends on the person and connection you had with them. I wrote about someone I don't genuinely believe I'll ever lose that connection with but that I know does not look at me or feel the same way anymore, this is short but I hope it says enough. -
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"Cosmo and Wanda think they're slick." ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ™„
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Day 5/60

something I realized during a conversation today:
It's so dumb,
I don't understand.
People think I'm obsessive because I care too much but that's not my intentions - not ever. I just love everything I like and then when I care too much they don't want it but if i don't care or I start to retreat away from those people who had my attention they're upset that I don't care about them. I feel like this generation of people believe it's never enough or too much and it's like what the fuck - even I do it, and honestly I just want someone to make a fucking decision, do you want me as I am or not? I'm overwhelming I get it but when I love people god do I love them, and maybe that's because I feel like I lacked in past relationships so I'm just trying to give my all. That's it, so why is it never good enough? I want to believe that there are good people and I've met a lot don't get me wrong, but they are never my person - never my people, I think this makes me feel isolated and I don't know if anybody else has ever felt the way I feel now so I tend to consider myself alone in this situation.
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Day 4/60 *****
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you're the polaroid in my pocket
could've sworn I almost forgot it
you aren't an image in a locket
You're the polaroid in my pocket
I thought I might have lost it
but I guess I just let it sit for a bit
after we split and now you're getting lit,
smitten with bitches
while I sew the stitches into
the slits I created in the
midst of missing you
you're just the photograph
the one who loved me half-assed
can't believe I thought
you had class
I kept giving you free passes
so you're just the
polaroid in my pocket
a piece of film worth a buck
and me, I was only worth a fuck
so here's to you and I
to the crumpled polaroid
a shout into the void
I've had enough
you're only a polaroid
you stupid fucking boy.
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I realize I am worth more than how I've been treated in the past, and I think the people I loved deserve better too. I said I wanted to write to grow but I also want to use this challenge as a way to grow out of old habits and people. The change I need is here and I should take it, I need to take it. I wasn't given the opportunities I was given to end up like the people I told myself I would never be or to end up in a toxic relationship like I've been before. I want to be happy and that's easier said than done but if you want something done right, you have todo it yourself. It is my job to create my life, happiness doesn't just knock on your door with open arms and I need to remind myself that sometimes. -
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day 3/60
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I always find myself missing someone, as if the lack of their presence in my life leaves me empty. I care about a handful of people and a lot of them have ended up being toxic, unfortunately.
I don't really know if I'll ever gain control of those standards, but I wanted to take time to acknowledge that I miss the me I was with some people but I also miss what they stole from, not just physically or romantically but mentally. Therefore I wrote a bland poem, lmao: "Farewell To Me" -
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Day 2/60
My grama comes back today and I swear I'm going to crumple up on the floor and cry, it's weird because I don't see a lot of people who have the relationship I do with my grama. I really appreciate that / this connection and I say it to people all the time but she is my best friend. We used to have these tea sets that came in really unique themes like a farm theme, a fruit theme, a bunny theme - that sort of thing. We'd bake fresh cookies and I'd have juice and pretend it was tea. We talk about it a lot, It was a routine.
I miss eating cookies off watermelon shaped plates and drinking from cups shaped like baby chicks. Although I do not miss the connection I had with her then because I know that connection is still here now.
Last year, I got to spend most of my 17th birthday with her, It's frustrating to know that this year will not be the same but I still encourage the changes she's made because I cannot grow if the people around me don't grow either and I don't want to limit the people I care about in anyway. I'm just grateful that I'm going to get to see her. -
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