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I think it's fair to say I've been a bit of a mess since spring.
I had 2 traumatic events happen in the same week and they broke me.
I felt like my whole world fell apart around me.
I was forced to reasses everything about my life and my personality.

Am I a good enough mother?
Is my buisness working?
Why am I raw?
What is the fcking point of anything?

I felt my self esteem crumble down to rubble.
That's really what I mean by mess.
I was dismantled into rubble.
Like a beautiful building cracked after an earthquake and finished off by the after shock.

But in realising this, I have realised that I now have a chance to start again.
I can take the pieces of myself that lay broken on the ground and use them to build myself up stronger, earthquake resistant even.

It's taken me a long time to get to this point though.
I've spent the last 6 months flickering between self reflection and self destruction.
I kept comparing how I was then to how I'd been a few months ago or even that time past year.

And I felt ashamed.
I kept looking at old pictures of myself when I had felt happy and it just made me feel worse and my self esteem dipped further down.
But comparing myself to how id been before this springs events, was me living in the past, desperately trying to clutch on to a past that I just needed to let go of.
I know now, and after a period of time just thinking and reassessing, that clinging on to my past self isn't going to work.
I now understand and am actually ready to let go, to accept and to move forward.
And the only way I can do that is by letting go of the past, and accepting the present.
I have to take the pieces of myself as I am, right now, and work with those to rebuild myself.
I have to work with what I got and where I am.
Pretending I'm somewhere else, someone else isn't going to work.

I've got to get real!

I'm here now.
I'm a beautiful mess of emotions and experiences.
But I'm finally ready to move forward.

There is something new coming into my life this Monday (I found a gym within my budget, where Molly can come and where I can do yoga and meditation!) so this week I have been focusing on making space.
(Full post on Facebook) 🧑

What have you done this week that made your heart smile? πŸ’•

We've been going for walks a lot recently.
Often we get out and it's a case of getting around and getting things done and home as quickly as possible. But walking reminds me to slow down and be with the moment. I begin to see the beauty of the autumn colours, I notice how my daughter plays, I breathe the cool air.
Walking gives me a chance to relax and to enjoy a slower pace.

If I rush too much and too often I can easily begin feeling burdened and overwhelmed, walking gives me permission to slow down and this is a lesson I carry into the rest of my daily life. πŸ’—
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This morning I've been studying the causes of addiction.
I've learnt that all addiction, be it browsing the internet, smoking, drinking, food, shopping etc, it all stems from the fear of emptiness.
The desire be full.
And that only by embracing the nothingness, the stillness of being, can we truly be satisfied.
And so be rid of our addictions.
It's the ultimate letting go of our attachments by surrendering to the empty space where true contentment is found.

So we tried out a meditation type technique where we say still and silent for 20 minutes, and allowed ourselves to feel bored.
We allowed ourselves to just do nothing. Absolutely nothing.
I noticed how my desire to get up and do things came and went. How my mind and body began searching for stimuli and distractions.
I let them pass. I embraced the stillness and the space within me.

When my alarm went off after the 20 mins me and Molly looked at each other in shock. It had gone so quickly.
It was easier and less painful than we thought it would be.

Finding peace with lack of stimulation is going to be huge with me. As ive fallen into a lot of habits that distract myself from the Actual true bliss than is the emptiness.
And that is going to be a big focus for me over the next week. Getting back to being comfortable and happy with nothing else but me.

It's helped me realise that it's not scary to experience emptiness.
Because you realise that you are so full already.
You realise how much you don't need other things, other people, and other habits to complete you.
You begin to notice how you are complete on your own.

The things we then do in our daily life have a more positive purpose.
We can exercise for fun and not to fill the empty space or give us validation.
The people we see are those we really want to, not just anyone so we don't have to be alone.
The food we eat isn't to distract but to nourish.

I'm excited for the peace we about to harness. πŸ’—
#happyonfruit #addiction #meditation #peace #innerpeace

So I ask Molly, "What French have you learnt today?" To which she replies...
"Down with fromage,
Up with pommes!" πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ˜„ I love this girl.
#veganfamily #homeed

My birthday cake this year was a delicious avocado feast πŸ˜‹πŸ₯‘πŸ…πŸ₯’πŸ’—
Avocados covered in lemon juice with all the goodies of lettuce, courgette slices, tomatoes and peppers.
Yep, that's what I wanted πŸ˜„
#avocado #happyonfruit

My birthday cake this year was a delicious avocado feast πŸ˜‹πŸ₯‘πŸ…πŸ₯’πŸ’—
Avocados covered in lemon juice with all the goodies of lettuce, courgette slices, tomatoes and peppers.
Yep, that's what I wanted πŸ˜„
#avocado #happyonfruit

Its amazing how quickly someone can switch from kind to cruel.
Its happened a lot when I'm speaking to people online.
One moment we are chatting and they seem kind, understanding, out to help the world.
Then I manage to flip their switch, usually because I forget to reply by getting distracted by the million other things I'm doing (like home educating, running a buisness, tidying the home all as a single parent),
Or maybe I just sat down to watch a movie with my daughter... which I'm fully entitled to do.

Why people think I owe them my immediate attention, especially after speaking less than a day is beyond me.

I've been up working since 7:30 this morning and have just been sent over a load of long messages telling me to pull my head out of my arse, and how I'm just attention seeking and selfish for choosing to take my daughter traveling on adventures indeed of rescuing animals πŸ™„.
All because I didn't reply last night to a message that wasn't even a question... I wish we could all try to have a bit more compassion and understanding for each other.
If someone doesn't reply and this leaves you feeling angry and hateful, why not reflect on why that hurt you so much.
Insulting that person and trying to ruin their day won't help you.
It won't make you feel better about whatever it is that's hurting you.
It's just spreading hate in a world already suffering from too much apathy.

No one owes you their time, attention or love, that fulfilment comes from within.
If someone offends you by not giving you what you want, it's likely because you're not giving it to yourself.

I understand you are hurting for reasons that have nothing to do with me, and I feel for you.
You deserve kindness, patience and happiness, but so do I.

Try to fill the world with love, and this includes yourself.
Fill yourself with love.

And to this person who may be reading with another unblocked account,
I forgive myself for not replying to you.
And forgive you for the spiteful things you said.

Love yourself so much that you don't care when it feels others don't. πŸ’—

After a day indoors working on my raw food book (and too much cacao 😷) I felt stuffy, fuzzy headed and irritable.
I needed to renew my energy, to get away from technology and breathe.
So we grabbed our shoes and went to visit our tree friends for an afternoon stroll in local woodlands.
Its not only helped my digesting speed up, but getting home it's like I get my motivation back to do things I love and crack on with writing again.
Often taking an hour or two off to wander in nature can seem like your procrastinating doing things you want or need to get on with, but it actually makes you more productive when you get back.
Give yourself permission to explore.
Open your days and your heart to wandering around for what may seem like no reason.
The benefits will be reaped even if you don't expect them too. πŸ’—
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#happyonfruit #naturelover #treehugger #homeed #selfemployed #businesswoman #harmony #peace #nature #woodland

Yep! It was delicious persimmon pudding with figs, deglet nour date pieces and cacao nibs.
Though I'm totally regretting the cacao nibs now (they make it a bit too much).
Absolutely delicious though!
I made it by blending up 4 large ripe persimmons, 2 cups of water and 14 Persian dates.
Then I cut up the figs and dates and sprinkled them all in.
I shared it with Molly with some still left over as it's so rich. πŸ’—

Yep! It was delicious persimmon pudding with figs, deglet nour date pieces and cacao nibs.
Though I'm totally regretting the cacao nibs now (they make it a bit too much).
Absolutely delicious though!
I made it by blending up 4 large ripe persimmons, 2 cups of water and 14 Persian dates.
Then I cut up the figs and dates and sprinkled them all in.
I shared it with Molly with some still left over as it's so rich. πŸ’—

Yep! It was delicious persimmon pudding with figs, deglet nour date pieces and cacao nibs.
Though I'm totally regretting the cacao nibs now (they make it a bit too much).
Absolutely delicious though!
I made it by blending up 4 large ripe persimmons, 2 cups of water and 14 Persian dates.
Then I cut up the figs and dates and sprinkled them all in.
I shared it with Molly with some still left over as it's so rich. πŸ’—

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