I know it sounds stupid, but I used to be extremely self conscious of my laugh. If you know me in person you'll know that my laugh is loud, like really really loud ahha. I remember one time a friend said "that you can hear me coming from a mile away from my laugh" and although he meant it as a compliment, I took it to heart. I started to think my laugh was too barking, too guttural and not demure or feminine enough. That it was obnoxious, attention seeking, and just uncomfortably loud. I remember trying to subdue and restrain it for months without success. And yes there are definitely aspects of my personality that did come from a place of wanting attention, but that was never the case for my laughter. My laughter always came straight from my belly, and rolled out of me as wild and reckless as thunder over the land. It wasn’t forced or put on. It was natural, and reigning it in, that was the unnatural part. I’m not sure what I’m trying to say except that I realized eventually, that people who find my laughter annoying will leave my life sooner than later, because I laugh… a lot. And that, people leaving is okay. Not everyone who comes into your life is meant to stay for your entire story, sometimes just for a chapter, sometimes just for a fleeting sentence. I will not change or tailor myself to suit anyone else. I will be who I am unapologetically right down to something as frivolous as my laugh. But just as a side note, if you are my friend, don't stand too close to me if someones telling a story or cracking jokes, you might just pop an eardrum ahah.
What are some insecurities that you’re working on letting go of? XX