I have done nothing but annoyingly brag about this person for the past like 72 hours, but you guys are just going to have to deal with it for one more time and then there will be like a ban on talking about this nerd.
Anxiety is really exhausting. Anxiety while you're trying to be a healthy happy partner in a relationship is really frustrating. I think anyone who deals with mental illness probably understands the feeling of desperately wanting to be transparent with someone in an intimate way but not wanting to put an emotional load on them or become a negative source of energy for them. You just want to be seen for you, and not your anxiety or the things you deal with.
Tonight I'm not sure why but I started feeling really anxious, and my go to is to completely withdraw and hide into my shell. I had a lot of sensory problems and I just felt like my brain was overloaded and couldn't handle anymore.
This goob put up with me literally hyperventilating and crying like a crazy person on the phone even though he was obviously super tired already because he wanted to make sure I was okay and to reassure me that he still saw me for me in between all of my 5000 apologies and repeat rambles. I'm just so thankful the universe decided to let me be his person. 🖤
And now I'm going to shut up and stop putting him on blast and annoying all of you. 🙃 I'm just grateful.
P.s. PLUS LOOK HOW CUTE HE IS. 🙃😅