»I laugh like a cornered villain who knows his escape. I will succeed because I must«
Paris 2016, world championships qualifications. I’m in the transit zone to go to the first boulder of the qualification round. I’m ready, at least I hope I am ready to finally make a good result. I go out, send the first boulder. Back in the transit zone, still hoping I’m ready for the next four boulders. I go out and fail. It all goes downhill from there. Back to the “shit, I’m not good enough mode” I fail miserably and end on the 45th place. With a goal in my mind I make an Instagram post with “Let’s just say I’m one comp closer to making a good result” caption. I go home, back to training.
Innsbruck 2018, world championships finals. I’m in the transit zone before the last boulder of the finals. Keita Watabe goes out and from the crowd’s cheering I know he got the zone hold. Kai Harada goes out, he flashes the boulder. Baam the young sensei is a world champion! It’s my turn to play. I stand in front 5000 people. I know if I send the boulder I earn myself a medal. I look at the crowd, think of my team, my family and my @njush . I think about how nervous they are. I smile, I wish I could tell them I’ve got this. I know I’ve got this, I’ve learned so much this year, there’s no way I’m letting this one slip away. First try, I get close to sticking the hardest move. Second try, even closer!!! This is it, I’d rather die than fall again. Third try, I mess up the first two moves but I’m still fighting. I take the leap of faith and stick the crazy one hand dyno to the zone. Two more moves and this is all over. I stick the next two moves and find myself on the top. I got a medal at the world championships! I smile and think of all the moments and people that got me here. I’m thankful to have this life and all the people in it. My life truly is amazing. #dreams @carbongrip