freeing.faye freeing.faye

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  20, Devonshire lass 🇬🇧 Mental health person. Functional crazy. Pole @hobbithollie Illustration @holliethehobbit

Because it wasn't just a smoothie. It was a smoothie I'd thought about starting my day with for weeks. It was a smoothie I'd tormented myself with. It was a fucking smoothie I dreamed of bringing into my life. It was a fucking smoothie but for me, it was pure grit and determination. However I now understand my smoothie game was weak and I want to try way more flavours and things in them. What a world I have suddenly seen.

The fact of the matter, I'm fed up of dreaming. Of dreaming of the life I want to be living. Instead, I'm just going to fucking make that life happen. I won't give up until I have achieved it. The world can shit on me ten times over and I will shit back at it with some explosive diarrhoea. So I sipped away this morning as I did my pole instructor training sat at my desk reminding myself that it's not weight, food,
Numbers or calories. I don't have time for those things in the life I want. It's just fuel that I will have to make time for in the life I want.

Today was a huge step for me. Because I started my pole instructor training. Not because of the smoothie. The smoothie is a baby step into the grand scheme of things. I've made a hell of a lot of steps back to where I was before my most recent hiccup with Ana, once I return to that point, I will only keep pushing for my life harder. All these baby steps add up. Trust a girl with short legs and tall friends on that one, my life is a constant light jog in heels.
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There are people in this world screaming at me to live. When I'm stood in Tesco tormented by Ana, those are the voices I hear just below Ana. Tonight I heard them screaming for me louder than ever. So I screamed back (not actually as that's frowned upon in Tesco) and got the salted caramel tart I wanted. It's banging.
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Who cares about pretty looking food when the first time all day you've finally felt hunger. Hell yes. Hello normal body function, I approve of you.
No need to suppress you, let's just get you what you want. Food.
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Today started a standard Sunday.
Pretty normal day, had the usual life plans of the day to get on with. Clean the bathroom, sort out some work bits, pole dance, kick Ana in the ankle as I walk past. Didn't really expect today was going to be the day. The big day.
Today, I got to start the first part of my dream. Today was the first step in starting a dream I've been sitting on, contemplating and twiddling my thumbs over for a hell of a while now. I remember whimsically mentioning maybe I'll do that with my life to my mum when I was sixteen years old, unprepared for the plans the world had coming for me over the next four years of my life.
Faye, stop with the dramatic reveal and get on with it love, we don't give a shit about your life story and how blessed you are to be surrounded by the most supportive, inspiring friends and family, we want to know what this is all about.
Yeah so basically, I'm going to become a pole dance instructor. Mad innit, once I've finished my training course, I'll be dragging you guys to some studio space and start snapping you all in half until you become cheese string people.
Eventually, the goal is to create a pole dancing army but we are working on that. In the meantime, there's going to be a lot of work going on behind scenes and most likely shared with you guys. Are we all stretched out to cheesestring capacity and ready to join Faye on this next step of her journey?
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