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Cece the flan ๐Ÿฎ  A frenchie trying to recover from anorexia ๐ŸŒž Over 10 hospitalizations (intensive cares; refeedings; psychiatry; edclinic; ngtubes). Inpatient.

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Oh man how hard it is here at the ed unit! I'm on a supervised week which means that i they look after me. The meals are incredibly hard and full of fat, i've already put on weight. My doctor told me that i can discharged myself in 8 weeks if i reach a bmi of 16! So i'm trying to finish all my meals ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿป #recovery #recoverywin #hospital #inpatient #anawho #anabitch #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #ednos #edwarriors #edrecovery #thisorhospital

And breakfast was the usual bread with jam and butter, only meal that i actually enjoy at the hospital ๐Ÿค— Along with a disgusting coffee โ˜•๏ธ I'm on my way to the ed unit and guys it's a mess in my head ๐Ÿ™„ I don't know how i will react in front of the doctors, if i will fight against them or listen to them. What i know is that i want to fight the illness and come home as soon as possible!
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I miss my food, i miss my family, my friends. I'm transferred in 30 minutes in a strict ed unit and i won't be able to post. I told the doctors that i will discharged myself and they said that they said they will section me if i do so. So i will fight. I feel really motivated right now but what scared me is the loneliness. But i did it in the past so i can do it again!
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Updates and trigger warnings: had weigh in this morning and even though i'm managing all my meals, i've lost 2 kgs this week. I am also having hypoglycemia everyday. I feel like my body is giving up on me. I'm leaving the reanimation service tomorrow, being transferred to an ed unit. I spent the afternoon crying because i'm tired of hospitals. I don't wanna go there.
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The team took my phone away yesterday night ๐Ÿ˜ญ Anyways breakfast this morning was the usual bread (yum yum). I think i'm doing fine, i'm almost managing all my meals even though it's scary. I'm not dripped anymore so i can walk in my room freely ๐Ÿค— Tomorrow my parents are coming to visit me and i'm excited! Only 4 days and i'll be transferred to the ed unit, but the days are so long ๐Ÿ˜ฑ
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Managed almost my whole plate for dinner but got suddenly scared when i saw the pasta ๐Ÿ˜ฑ But well i guess i did well and even had a banana instead of an apple ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿป๐Ÿค— Days are boring and fortunately the team, once again, forgot to take my phone away hehe ๐Ÿ˜‰
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Guess who finished her lunch for the first time in ages?? Me! ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿป And the food is ok here, it's eatible. This morning i could not have something consistent to eat because the doctors forgot my meal plan so i had an hypoglycemia but it's ok now! I'm not supposed to have my phone but they forgot to take it back hehe... hopefully they will forget again! And also, i'm transferred to the ed unit on Wednesday finally!
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Good morning โ™ก
Had an okayish night (they didn't give me the right medicine to sleep) and i'm kinda missing my family... but oh well i have to fight for this right? So bring the food! Breakfast this morning wasn't this picture but a fruit purรฉe with a yoghurt (i know it's not enough but this is all they could give me). Today is a big day because i have to decide if i accept or not the tube feeding. And i decided that i will not ๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿป #thisorhospital #prorecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #instafood #foodporn #food #foodie #foodiegram #breakfast #anawho #anabitch #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexia #edrecovery #ednos #edwarriors #recoverywin #recovery

I miss my flan so much ๐Ÿ˜ž
So the transfer went well, i'm in my room and i saw the doctors. I had weigh-in and lost weigh so the doctor wants to tube me but i refused. She gave me one more day to think about it and i don't really know what to do ๐Ÿ˜ž
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Cosy #ootd for a rough day, and to hide into something baggy. Idk how my day will go but i'll keep you updated as much as i can if they let me my phone. I'm sorry if i am a little bit struggling and if I'm triggering lately but it's a mess in my head.
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Could not manage breakfast this morning, i'm such a fail. I asked to be weighed but they refused so i didn't eat. I'm so pathetic and i'm scared that the refeeding unit will weigh me after my meals and that i will weigh even more than i do. Why am i such a mess.
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Thx for all your supportive comments. It warmed my heart and even though i'm struggling i managed soup with bread and cheese for dinner. My head is planning on skipping all my meals tomorrow if my weight hasn't gone down and i'm just lost. And overwhelmed at the same time. I don't know what will happen at the refeeding unit and that scares me.
#prorecovery #recoverywin #inpatient #hospital #anorexia #anawho #anabitch #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiarecovery #ednos #edrecovery #edwarriors #thisorhospital #eatforabs #eatclean #food #foodie #foodporn

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