Real talk time. For the past four or so years I've been dealing with crippling anxiety, and, as a symptom of that, major depressive disorder. I've tried a couple of different SRRIs without much luck, managed to develop benzodiazepine dependency after a traumatic event last summer; been in psychodynamic therapy twice a week for three years - and will now also try EMDR therapy through the student health service when my government subsidized therapy ends.
Don't get me wrong, the social welfare system of Finland has been nothing but helpful - but I am not getting any better. Rather, the anxiety aspect of things is getting more and more severe. Feeling as though you will throw up any moment every day is not a good thing to live with for several years. It has also made me have to put my university studies on hold indefinitely. Coincidentally, the stress of having to always achieve and accomplish was what triggered these issues this time around.
Regardless, I remain hopeful that through hard work and initiative (which is coincidentally what is the most difficult thing to do right now) things will get better.
I just wanted to share this post, because I honestly have not been good at keeping in touch with my lovely friends for a while due to these circumstances. Now you know, and I have also been all about being open about mental health issues in order to reduce stigma. I sure do miss working at that ICCD clubhouse back in Norway where a lot of what we did as to better exactly that aspect of society.
I could go on, but you got the gist of it. Also, is anyone else is going through something similar, feel free to message me or whatever. You are not alone.
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