What a great analogy for how the past few months have been going.
Every evening when the day is over a calmness settles and things are okay, another day has passed. Then upon waking up the immense sense of dread comes bubbling up again that there's nowhere to go, no purpose to fulfill. Loneliness is the most destructive of conditions.
Sometimes walking a few miles at 3am is alright, the streets are empty with a sense of stillness not usually felt in the city. #alone
This bench along the canal stretching from inter bay to lake union was a refuge for quiet moments to clear racing thoughts and stress during college years. The other day it served as a reminder of an inability to form lasting connections.