A lot of my life right now feels like the sea.
I don't really know where I'm at or where I'm headed.
It's vast, sometimes dark, + often unclear.
It's easy to get lost in. //
But most of my "best moments" have been the ones where I control + predict less + lean in more. Because when I do try to control + predict, it looks a lot like purposefully planting seeds of doubt- flourishing into self sabotage.
+ I'm kinda over betting against myself.
So instead, I'm mindfully making it less of a habit to nurture the thoughts that believe there's some truth to my "prediction". Magic won't happen here. It can't.
Magic doesn't live alongside certainty.
Predicting is setting myself up for the plausibility of something instead of marveling at the possibilities of it ALL. (Where the magic happens.)
But sweets, this awareness doesn't give me immunity to self-doubt.
My self-doubt has been loud. My self-doubt can be easy to believe.
I've just grown tired of defending those thoughts.
Which isn't to say that I don't hear them. But instead of reacting to them, I sit with them.
I'm acknowledging the parts of me that need to feel this way because it's ok to.
+ every time I've recognized this, it feels less like drowning.
Here's to taking a plunge.
captured by: @nicolesweet ✨
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