Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
30 hasn't started out easy. As many of you know I have severely ill with a bad stomach flu. It has been difficult just to complete basic functions like hold down food/fluids or breathe or stand. I've spent the better part of a week in bed, in a lot of pain. It's given me plenty of time to think, reflect, & really evaluate my life. This kind of thing tends to give you perspective. Life is so fragile.
In spite of it all, I had a fantastic 30th birthday. I made it out of bed, and spent the night dancing, surrounded by so many wonderful people I dearly love. I received HUNDREDS of beautiful messages and calls and texts from many others. I haven't had a chance to respond individually to them all, but I read every one, and I feel an overwhelming amount of gratitude for each & every one of you. Most days I wake up in awe. I don't know how I got so lucky, how this crazy ride became my life, how these amazing people became my friends; but whatever roller coaster brought me here, I am grateful for it every day. I am grateful for YOU every day. Thank you, for being exactly who you are, for existing and for loving me. For choosing to spend even a tiny piece of your energy and time on me. It means the world to me.
I plan to live out this year, and the rest of my life, in that gratitude. Everything is not perfect. There is much still left to heal in myself, in my life, in the world, but I have been given a chance to do that and for that I am grateful. I will not waste it.
I woke up today feeling a little stronger, filled with clarity and hope. I am still breathing, still standing. I am alive, I am awake, I am aware. I am only one person, but I can make a difference, and I will. In a world full of darkness, I will fight relentlessly for love, with love. I will fight to be the mirror for the beauty I see in the world and in the hearts of every person whose eyes I look into. I will fight to make sure everyone I come into contact with, however fleetingly, knows their worth, that they matter and that they are enough and that they are loved. Yes, even you. Especially you. ❤️ Bring it on, 30. We've got some world changin' to do.