portraits by mr @jeremycowart. some thoughts:
i don't love to have my picture taken. i'm not a model, i'm not thin, i'm not a lot of things. and people don't often want to take my picture. or if they do, they ask me to turn away, or turn around, or look down, or they crop my face out completely. and then, in an attempt to be brave i post a photo of myself to instagram and people unfollow. and of course instagram is not about followers for me, and i've never cared about that, but it's hard not to take that personally (even if you're trying really really hard not to). i've shared thousands of images on here but one photo of my face is the line for some people. and it's hard to let that roll off your back unharmed. i'm not a narcissistic person, and posting your own portrait certainly doesn't imply that. i don't need or seek the approval of anyone and it's easy to say "i don't care what anyone thinks!" but there's another part of me that's sensitive and needs to protect my heart a bit. but jeremy asked me to come get my photo taken and i gave him a list of all the reasons why i didn't want to and he asked me to come anyway. so i did. and here they are. i know portraits are important and i know that we are ALL worthy of being documented, not JUST the models (though there's nothing wrong with that either). and i hate that i even have to feel like this is me being brave because it's silly. but a lifetime of people telling you to look away can do a number on you. and i'm not saying this so anyone will think i'm brave or tell me i'm pretty. i'm just rolling through some thoughts. if you're around nashville, go get your portrait done by jeremy. he's so good and he has all these neat lights and he will make it so easy on ya.
and that's all i have to say about that. ❤