"The truth is that, I didn't know how good you were...
...until you were gone."
Have you ever heard that some #writer & composer use liquor to enhance their creativity? The thing is writer’s block has never occured to me before... Not until the series of final semesters hecticness & job deadlines come in to life. It feels like 16h wasn’t enough anymore, so I should optimize the day to at least 20h. & I started the #coffee intake to help stay awake.
Then I found out, the increase on heart-pumping & adrenaline also escalate my critical thinking & analogical capability, thus optimizing the level of creativity & insanity. “Oh, this is something new,” I thought excitedly, “I can keep stay clean from alchohol yet perhaps reach same level of madness, I love!” Then I started looking for my new lover, everytime I need.
I didn’t realized that we’re attached that much. Till the #lent came. I remember that a friend of mine, who happened to work in creative industry too & only sleep like 2h approximately daily due to high demand, did a coffee fasting last year & was in awe that he able to take it.
But I do realized that my life depend more to it lately, so I decided to took it up too this year, and thought it wouldn’t be so hard.
Turn out, IT WASN’T THAT EASY! I thought I was lost. I missed it yet I couldn’t reach out for it!
There were several afternoon went through that I just feel like curled up with my pillow instead. There were also times I just wanna cry that I need to stay awake and running for the deadlines. And yeah, I cheated twice or thrice... On the day when I was on brain-freeze yet the deadline’s coming in few hours, and on the day when I need to be wide awake for a test whereas I only slept 3h for 3d in a row due to packed slot.
Of course, there are lessons learned from coffee fasting on this lent. It taught me to done the work more precisely & strategically so everything wrapped up earlier & got more time for a good sleep. And... I learned to appreciate more even just a tiny little bit in life bcs... we maybe never realized how good thing has been, until we’re limited to it, or even worst...it was gone.