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Ellie  My journey to recover from anorexia...for good. Pro Recovery ❀️πŸ’ͺ

Chilli con quorn 😍
What a yummy meal, topped off with a succulent blob of my all time best bud... mango chutney πŸ‘ and a side salad πŸ₯—
May have to get a new phone tomorrow as mine is on the blink! Was thinking the iPhone SE πŸ€” Any thoughts? Oh and what colour? My fave was the goldy one I think 😊
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Cheering myself up with a childhood fave after a morning filled with a series of rather unfortunate events! Still, these scrumptious twiglets take me back to my youth... kids birthday parties, pass the parcel, musical statues, party bags and of course the all important birthday tea! My first choice were always the cheese and pineapple sticks, with French fancies for afters! 🎈
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All you marmalade haters can do one, because my mums marmalade is the bees knees! Homemade chunky orange marmalade on thick cut wholemeal toast always hits the spot! Although, I can't say I've found a spread I actually dislike! Jam, honey, marmite, lemon curd, peanut butter... you name it, I love it!
What are your favourite spreads?
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A good old iced bun with a mightily milky tea will always make for the perfect afternoon pick me up πŸ‘Œ
Snapped up this fancy fella from the M&S at Manchester train station this morning and I've been looking forward to it ever since! I haven't had one of these yums in far too long and maybe I should have gone for the double trouble twin pack, because my dad is going to be ridiculously jealous! After all, they are his fave! Sorry dad 😐, but your gonna have to buy your own mate πŸ˜‚
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Ending my marvellous weekend in Manchester with an overflowing bowl of shreddies πŸ˜‹
I've had one hell of a lot of fun this weekend! Last night we took a trip to a comedy gig and my word did it supply the giggles! I'd forgotten just how much joy and happiness that laughter brings. When something tickles you, let it out... burst into hysterics, snort, cackle, cry, roll on the floor! It doesn't matter how, but express your joy and let it show because it honestly makes the word of difference, it will brighten your day and boost your mood like a rocket πŸš€
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A hunky chunky Brie and pickle sandwich to show anorexia who's boss! I might be a whole kg up from this time last week, but that doesn't mean I cut back or skimp! I'm jolly proud of myself. Gain weight, gain life, lose your eating disorder πŸ‘
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Manchester has been brill so far and filled with good food, family, sunshine and smiles, not to mention this plate of beany soup and a doorstop wedge of hand cut sourdough bakery bread. But... there is something big playing on my mind. Sure, I'm eating plenty, having what I need and doing what is right, but it's when you're completely immersed in normal life and surrounded by normal people who have no hang ups around food that you realise just how abnormal anorexia has made you. Thoughts, feelings and emotions that just shouldn't be there, crap we don't deserve to have to deal with and most of all just an incredible loss of freedom in every walk of life. Yes anorexia is on its way out, yes I can enjoy croissants, choccie and cheese, but I've had a rather sudden realisation of just how far there is still to go πŸ˜• Gaaahhhh I'm sorry, I hate being such a negative noob!
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A trip to the bakery should always include a flakey, full butter, freshly baked croissant πŸ₯
Fear foods are funny things, some people might fear chocolate, some people it's bananas, others it might be lettuce! It's all individual, but what unites each and every fearfood, is that they're all totally ridiculous! I'm happy to say that this croissant doesn't scare me, doesn't cause panic or phase me one but. It only puts a big fat smile on my face, just like it should! I promise that with lots of perseverance and facing your demons head on, ANYTHING is possible 😊
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Wining and dining in style with a man sized bowl of creamy ricotta filled ravioli! Me and the bro, table for two, anorexia strictly uninvited πŸ’ͺ
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Be silly, be serious, be crazy, be cautious, be timid, be talkative, be happy, be sad, be fun, be boring, be geeky, be cool, be old, be young, be short, be tall, be kind, be fierce, be wild, be free...be WHATEVER you want, but please don't be your eating disorder πŸ’•
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I've had many questions recently regarding university. Should I go with an eating disorder? Should I take a gap year?..... the ultimate answer is that it is your own decision, and no one can make it for you, but maybe it's best if I tell you all how my journey goes πŸ€”
I started at Oxford University in October 2015, weight restored from my first Ip admission for around 18 months. Unfortunately, despite being physically recovered, my mind set remained unchanged and anorexia was still ruling my life. Therefore, the moment I was away from the watchful eyes of my parents who had kept me safe for so long, the tell tale traits, habits and behaviours snuck in. It was simple at uni, no one knew my history, no one knew I had anorexia, so no one really noticed or cared as my weight plummeted and I hid myself away. All in all, things got horrendously bad and I was admitted without choice, to my second Ip unit before first year was up. I still didn't want to get better, restore my weight or get rid of anorexia, so, quite honestly, I just didn't! I fought the system, cheated, lied and for that I am ashamed. I wanted to start my second year at uni so badly, that I discharged myself against medical advice. Stupid!!
As everyone had told me, when term started, it all went pear shaped again. It was only the threat of a third admission that forced me to make small changes, and from there, as my mindset transformed from anti-recovery to PRO-recovery, bigger changes, HUGE ones. I'm now doing this recovery thing for real and I couldn't be happier that I'm doing it 100% for myself, by myself! No services, no nagging parents, just me. Recovery isn't simple at uni, it's TOTALLY up to YOU! There won't be people there to pick up the pieces or monitor your weight, intake and exercise. If you're determined enough, like I am, you CAN DO IT, but anorexia is a lot more sneaky and deceptive than even I realised, and it's gonna be TOUGH!
I'm a fighter, I've made it this far, and when I start back this October in gorgeous Oxford, anorexia is not returning with me! Fun, food, booze, friends... (oh and lectures πŸ˜‚)... I am ready to take you on πŸ’ͺ

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