Mon thru Sun - one word: rough.
I've had a struggle with my body having to go back to the chiropractors, needing adjustments more regularly than I thought. Joints seem to either tighten or fall back to where they were which is the reason for my nervesystem acting up. It makes me very tired but also unable to sleep much. With it also comes migranes, worst nausea I've felt, nerve pain and cramps. Nothing very pleasant here at the moment,body wise! On the other hand, my week have also been filled with lovely people. Getting back in touch with old friends & meeting new ones. I can't really tell you how I've even got half of the things done as I've drifted in and out of a state of exhausting pain and excitement. What weird feelings those two combined, making everything seem like a weird hazy dream. We have a few assumptions as to why I get so very ill and most of it has to do with the vascular compressions. When trying to straighten up my spine, after surgery, it seems to touch and move nerves along the places I've been operated.Naturally causing different organs to be affected too. A very complex matter but also understandable. It takes time to put this body straigth obviously...Time I rather want to spend doing fun, but ah well, life! Hopefully a lesson is burried under this hardship too.Trying to keep my eyes on my goal here and remembering that I'm still on an important path.I will trust it to lead me in the direction I am ment for.No matter the pain, tiredness, no matter how I feel: I keep this inner peace and drive that tells me "just hold on for a little longer, you will get to live in grand tranquility, when your time is right!" & I can't help thinking pain keeps happening because it is still teaching me something I will desperately need to know. So I can enjoy the grace I am deserving of without having to be apologetic about it. I am still learning through pain, every single day. In hard,dark,humoristic,humbling,regretful ways -but most of all it teaches me to trust the comfort that lies resting inside me,to know there is no shame living a rich life abundant in happiness. I need to hold on to that. That there's a chance I might be painfree someday.