Okay, so! I just wanna talk a little bit about the Drag Race reunion episode this week! I knew from the get-go that Kameron was an ambivert so, seeing the other queens calling her out for being “fake,” and having a different personality online and in person made me want to punch a hole in my laptop screen.
An ambivert, for those of you that aren’t quite sure, is an introvert who can put on the face of an extrovert for periods of time. It’s actually a very common personality type in performers. So, they’re shy and quiet when you first meet them but in large social situations or while on stage, they’re loud, charismatic amd funny. This can change as you get to know an ambiverted person and they become more comfortable around you.
I associated with Kameron a lot in that moment when the queens were attacking her. I’ve dealt with that a lot my whole life. When I’m at any sort of social gathering, people just expect me to be “on,” and my usual, chatty self but I always need that time to acclimatize beforehand. Even then, I may seem like I’m an extrovert but underneath, I’ve got a lot of anxiety, self-doubt and over-analysis. Even small talk can be such a drain on my energy and once it’s gone, I’m done. I can’t fake it. I can’t put on a fake smile and pretend. Emotionally, I’m finished and I need some alone time to recharge. I literally have to go home, get into bed (regardless of the time of day) and hide for an hour or two before I can face anything again cuz I’m that emotionally exhausted.
Because of all that, it’s easy for people to label ambiverts as pretentious, disengaged and full-out bitch. ESPECIALLY because of the fact introverts/ambiverts are a lot more extroverted on social media, purely because it’s easier to interact and engage with people without the physical act of being around them.
Kameron is a queen I can completely relate to and to see the other queens attack her showed that a lot of them were completely off base and didn’t understand what was fully going on. So I’m #teamkameron until the end and beyond. ❤️