Twenty-one, the start of another year of my life. I usually have mixed feelings on birthdays. They make me think about how fast life is passing, what direction I am heading.. While today was no exception to that (delaying today’s work by not being able to stop crying my eyes out) it was different. .
I’ve grown so much mentally the past year. Before, I was battling mental and physical illnesses which took up most of my energy everyday. And I still have problems, still have some chronic pain issues. But I am not battling anymore. I’ve come to accept the fact that sometimes, our internal energy can manifest itself in negative ways and we will never be able to fully take control of that. Fighting that process is a waste of energy. .
I’ve had, and still have many “bad days/weeks” where it seems like nothing is improving. But the knowledge that with kindness, trust and mindfulness, you can take care of that negative energy (not fight it), is something that made me believe in my own abilities more than ever. I want to step up my game so much more this year, and share it all with you guys. <3 .
Thank you for staying with me, sending me encouraging messages, and believing in me. Much love !!!