I’m not really sure how to say what it is I want to say right now. So, I’m going to start at the beginning of my story and we will see where we end up. About 6 weeks ago I woke up with my knee super swollen and hard to move. My joints hyperextend so I assumed I strained something that way. After 2 weeks of progressively getting worse I went to the doctor. At the time, they saw nothing wrong, so I was sent home with a brace and crutches and told to rest. Again, it was just getting worse even with rest. At my two week follow up appointment I was told that the radiologist found two masses on the back of my knee cap. That’s really all I heard before turning on autopilot. I left with no information other than them ordering more tests and me following up to discuss my options. I freaked out the first night, ugly crying and all. I’ve gone through every emotion a person can go through. I thought God, or the Universe was punishing me, for not being good or kind enough. I was pissed because I’ve been through enough medical shit the past few years to take on whatever it is I’m about to take on. That’s not how life works though as I’m sure we all know. I didn’t magically become immune to everything because I had a very traumatic surgery and my last 18 months have been hard. In a perfect world, that’s how things would work, but we don’t live in a perfect world where things work out fairly. So, I’ve been taking off my brace in my photos. I haven’t wanted to answer questions that don’t have answers right now. I’ve wanted to stick my head completely in the sand for a while, and so I did. However, we are inching closer to that appointment. The one with the “results” and “options” and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. I’m so scared. I’m so scared. But I can’t stick my head in the sand any longer, and I’m making peace with whatever happens. This is just another chapter in the book of Amber. Through my biggest struggles you guys have always been there and I’m writing this because I hope you’ll be there for whatever happens next. If you wouldn’t mind sending me some good vibes I could really use it right now. Thank you, I love you.