New York used to scare me.
I lived there for 5 years and they were complicated years.
I did not have anybody beside the person I was dating which was abusive and had managed to isolate me from everyone I used to love. One day I was at a yoga conference when I met the first person I felt I could truly trust, a fellow yogini covered in tattoos. We hit it off instantly, and after parting ways I was invited to visit her in New Jersey. Over an hour away from my NYC home somehow I found the strength to ignore my ex's rules ( he did not allow me to travel alone anywhere) and I just took the ferry alone to Highlands, NJ. Overwhelmed by the beauty of its surroundings and the kind nature of its people, I knew instantly that I wanted to live in New Jersey. On my return to New York, I broached the subject to him: “I want to live in New Jersey.” I remember asking him if he thought he could live there. Instead of a discussion, or even an argument, he threw a table at me, in a public restaurant in Cobble Hill, BK. I remember not having any reaction to it and I remember seeing the guy sitting next to us looking at me shocked. He asked me if I was ok? I said "Yes, it is all good. Do not worry." That’s when I finally admitted that something was really wrong. It is hard to say but you’re never abused enough to admit you’re abused. You only admit it when it’s too late, and I did not want it to become too late.
With the knowledge that I had to get out, pretending all was ok with him, I continued to take secret trips to New Jersey on my own, and eventually told him that I was leaving. It was over and I was moving to New Jersey.
New Jersey is now my home, the place where I found love, my self and my family.
It was hard but things turned around. I turned them around and today I can return to NYC with a light heart, not afraid of my memories anymore and willing to build new, beautiful ones.
Thank you @icreatelife_ for this beautiful image. I see my story in it🙏🏻
Wearing @werkshop .
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