My body often feels like it is not entirely my own.
It is a shared space.
It homes not only me and but also my eating disorder. .
Eating disorders can feel like a separate entity competing for the same space that you contain. Constantly trying to take over and squash you into nothingness. .
Trapping you in an abusive relationship. Convincing you that you need it, that there is no life without it. Leaving you feeling too controlled and scared to fight against it. Removing your power and instead leaving you feeling worthless. .
BUT YOU'RE NOT! .
YOU ARE SO WORTHY! .
You can take your power back and learn to control your eating disorder!
You body is yours, NOT your eating disorders. .
Each time you choose fight against your eating disorder: you grow stronger and your eating disorder becomes weaker, you begin to regain ownership of your body and you push your eating disorder further and further away into nothingness. .
I will strip my eating disorder of its power and the space it holds in me!
I am so much more than my disorder!
I am so much stronger than my disorder!
I will win this! .
And so can you! .
Eating disorders are weak, they feed off of people's vulnerabilities and convince them that they are, in fact, the weak ones. But this isn't true! .
You are so much stronger than you believe!
You've lived with this terrible disorder, that is literally trying to kill you every single day, and YOU'VE SURVIVED! .
That is strength and the only way to beat an eating disorder is with strength.
The strength to go against what your eating disorder is screaming at you and choosing yourself instead.
The strength to keep fighting it, even when you don't want to.
The strength to choose life over your eating disorder. .
And if you don't feel you have that strength right now, it's ok! There is help available that will allow you regain that strength but you have to reach out and ask for help! .
There is so much more to life than your eating disorder tells you.
So trust in yourself, draw on your strength by choosing recovery and actually start experiencing it!