Quality equals my productivity level🙌
Tbh I can't even identify myself anymore with the girl on the left. I was embarrassed, low self esteem, afraid, I wished I could be invisible, tons of hate for myself and no happiness.
Now I will dance in the subway and not give a shit, sing, eat in front of everyone my 4th plate, wear whatever I feel good with and don't care about what others think. - not in a way of; idgaf 'bout others - more like; I do me, my vibe attracts my tribe, I don't hate you if you don't like me, some people just aren't meant to be in your life.
The difference between those two people isn't the weight tho. I know, I sound like a broken record, but losing weight didnt make me more happy or make me feel more attractive.
After I lost all the weight, regained some, lost some, etc, that's when the journey started. The mental one. Because even at my lowest weight I didn't feel any better.
What made me feel better were and are endless hours of reflection, teaching myself to love all of me, no matter what size or shape, because..I am who I am, and I am valuable. Everyone is.
Appearance is such a shallow way to judge a person - we all judge, let's not act like we don't, we just don't surround ourselves with people we judge.
You are SO. MUCH. MORE. than that.
Imagine looking at the earth and thinking it is beautiful, then learning about physics, chemistry, math, psychology, philosophy etc.
All the beauty that is revealed when looking closer. That's you.
Weight loss, hypertrophie, weight gain, nothing of these will make you feel good - the only thing that will make you feel good is yourself. The way you perceive yourself. The way you treat and think about yourself.
You👋are👋the👋shit👋 a l w a y s.
Not to everyone, but to the people who belong in your life, and most importantly, to yourself.