honestly, i feel a little numb. kind of scared. heavy. in a shell. in a daze. anxiety and depression is no joke. it's been an ongoing battle for me and has been creeping in slowly but surely the past few weeks. or maybe months, you never really know. going to a doctor today. seeing a therapist. no alcohol, more water. trying acupuncture. doing all the things. well, not exercise (i've been lazy) i know, i should. something just hasn't been right. luckily i have my loving boyfriend and my friends to tell me it's all going to be okay, but when you're down here it's hard to even hear them. and it's hard to be grateful for all the things i need to feel grateful for. the weight on my chest is irritating and constant. anyway, i'm venting. have to go to this doctor now. 🙏🏻 and to anyone who's going through this garbage, a big hug. hope life feels like this picture again soon.