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๐Ÿ”บDee Espo ๐Ÿ’ช  ๐Ÿ”น๏ธWord Lover ๐Ÿ“–๐Ÿ–‹ ๐Ÿ”น๏ธ@spartan ๐Ÿ™Œ ๐Ÿ”น9X Trifecta Finisher๐Ÿ’ช ๐Ÿ”น1x Endurance Trifecta Finisher ๐Ÿ˜ˆ ๐Ÿ”นUltra Beast Finisher ๐Ÿ”ฅ ๐Ÿ”นHH12HR-041 Finisher ๐Ÿ’ข

I've been consciously working on not letting my emotions control me.

It's something that I've always struggled with, because my passion can cause outbursts of all types of feelings, but I've recently set aside time to really evaluate how I react to a variety of uncontrollable situations.

My findings?

1) Controlling my reactions is way fucking harder than I would have thought, but the outcome is worth the effort

2) I fail here and there on this journey, but every situation is a teachable moment, and they're becoming less and less

3) Everything begins with a strong mind, and the more you can tap in to that and take control, the happier you'll be

I've found that I've never been happier than I am when I'm in full control of my reactions, and although hard in the beginning, the practice of simply letting go has been one of the most freeing things I've ever done.

Free yourself from yourself and watch the world open up.

I need you to go out and find something that lights a fire in your heart and brings peace to your soul.

This thing needs to challenge you and yet wholly fulfill you.

It needs to not be a person.

It needs to be something that's yours, and only yours.

It needs to be something that uproots your very essence, that steers you in the direction of self-satisfaction on the greatest scale, and it needs to bring you moments of complete failure that lends itself to complete humbleness.

You need to find something that makes you question a varying degree of your own self, shedding light on a better and more connected you.

You need to find something that makes you feel more alive than any thing else ever has, and you need to hold on to it.

That is my wish for you.

Because nothing in the world is more satisfying than being head over heels passionate for something that swells your heart, for something that brings you to your darkest moments to only shine the brightest light... and for something that is completely yours.

We get so worried about being happy that we end up missing out on happiness altogether.

Stop waiting for that magical moment of pure bliss and start enjoying whatever little fragments of happiness you can find...
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It's the rainy nights spent curled under a blanket with a good book.

It's the feeling you get in your stomach when you've laughed so hard.

It's licking cookie dough off your fingers.

It's the solo dance parties in your room at 3am.

It's the little moments.

That's what life's about.

Sundazeeeee. ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

Over here just wishing I was over there with these guys. ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’ซ
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Austin still has my heart, and wishing everybody there this weekend (especially these fools) the best race weekend ever.

Eat as many breakfast tacos as you can handle. And then a couple more for me.

Double Under Update:

Stringing more consistently now.

Got 14 today. Here's 11.

Let's keep it movingggggg. ๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ’ซ

๐Ÿ’ซ Soul Food Fridays ๐Ÿ’ซ
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"When someone shows you their true colors, don't try to repaint them."
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I think this is something a lot of people do: try to yearn for what they knew someone to be, rather than accepting the person that is right in front of them.

People will always show you who they are, some do it within 5 minutes of meeting, some do it after years - but the fact remains that once those things are revealed, it's up to you to make the next move.

And wallowing is never the right one.

You can take some time to digest, you can even mourn - but don't ever try to repaint them.

It's a waste of time.

And you'd be better off gracefully accepting who they are, wanting nothing but happiness for who they are, and moving forward with your own happiness.

Cause bitterness does nothing but keep you from flying.

And you've got no time for that.

I'm posting this because I know it's someone's pet peeve. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค— #obnoxiousplates

Soul suckers.

That shit is reeeeaaaaallll out hurr.

You might find these people: the ones that simply use you to help them begin their journey.

The ones that take your guidance for a time and then drop you.

The ones that disguise themselves, the ones that you believed in, and the ones that tricked you for their own self gain.

Don't let that upset you.

Rather, be PROUD of yourself.

Feel content knowing that you have the type of energy that makes people want to be better. That influences good behavior. That makes someone look at themselves analytically and want to level up their lives.

If they use your energy to help heal and make themselves whole, you've done your part.

If they leave you after all of that, let their energy go freely.

Just remember how much energy they sucked from you, and realize that you couldn't have sustained that forever.

And it's okay. You were used. But you were used for good.

You helped them begin their journey, you cracked open their heart to let light shine in.

You were a critical part in their lives.

And no one can ever take that away from you. โค

Shout out to all the women working on loving their bodies.

Cause that shit's hard and I'm proud of you. ๐Ÿ™Œ

"Close some doors.

Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance -

But simply because they no longer lead somewhere."

YO. It's my best friend's 30th birthday.

That's it.

Click click.

Cheeeeyas!

Happy 30th to the woman that battle axed her way in to my life 10 years ago and never fucking left.

From that first conversation it was love at first sight. My soul found a twin soul in a different body and I've been blessed with a friendship that has brought me loyalty, laughter and support to the tenth degree.

This bitch has loved me through all of my mistakes, my fuck ups, my "WHAAAT THE FUCK DEEEE?!?" moments and has never ever ever judged me or made me feel any less.

All humans need a human like my human.

THANK YOU JO FOR BEING EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE.

Cheeeyas to the last 30, and FUCK YES to the next. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ #TeamDonuts

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